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Books, Korean Fantasy Dramas, Life, Shows, Simon Snow

Stress and Relaxation

My birthday was this week, and somehow, it’s been quite stressful and depressing for me for the last couple of years. It was no different this year, of course.

Yesterday, stress of another nature occurred with an intruder who wanted some money and wouldn’t leave till after I threatened to hit him with my slippers.

Yet, I have been finding some relaxation too, with reading mainly and watching shows. I finished the Simon Snow series, and absolutely loved them. I would highly recommend those books to anyone.

I also watched The Tale of the Nine Tailed on Netflix, and that show just left me wrecked. I was initially like, Gods, everyone is so pretty, it should be illegal, but ended the show, bawling my eyes out. If you enjoy fantasy, and angst and friendship and found family, and romance, it is a great show to watch.

I’ve started the Guardian, another Korean fantasy drama, and so far it has been sad and hilarious at the same time.

In case you’ve forgotten, Whispers in the Dark is releasing on the 27th, and you should definitely pre-order your copies today here.

I’m going to likely binge the Guardian like I did Nine Tailed. (sigh). What do I do with life afterwards is the main question.

Life, New Release, Random, WIP, Writing

Back after a long break

I hadn’t intended to take a break, but work got so crazy. I could hardly write two or three sentences a day afterwards. Most days in June, I got home after 9 or 10 in the night, so exhausted I was keeling over.

Fortunately, all that is at an end now.

My resignation has been accepted, and I will be leaving the bank on 31st July. I am taking 4 days in a week off during this month, and it took me five full days to get to a place where my brain stopped feeling like it was stuffed full of cotton and for my body to feel somewhat normal.

I managed to finish adding additional scenes to Bleeding Gold and started on the rewrites of the Wizard. It is going well so far. I’m not planning on doing anything other than the rewrites during July. The plans are to catch up on all my editing in August, and then start working on my WIPs.

Both Banished Secret and Curse of Souls are with betas now, and I’m feeling rather relieved that it is done. Out of the Blue is still with betas, but hopefully, I will have it back soon.

I still need to add beta notes to Colliding Forces, Magical Mayhem and the last three books of the Elite and the Rogues. Time enough for that I suppose. I have all of that firmly inside the AFTER JULY Bucket.

Don’t forget that Rise of the Resistance is due to release on the 20th.

Pre-orders can be made here

Grishaverse, Life, Lockdown, Shadow and Bone, SPFBO, WIP, Writing

One Down, forty four to go

Finally, after cursing and stomping my feet and countless tantrums from my brain, I finished the first draft of Fiery Magic. I do feel accomplished right now.

The rewrite of Soul of Magic is going on. I hope I can get it finished this month. Fingers crossed.

I started a new WIP and a new fanfic. The fanfic is obviously Shadow and Bone, but I’m excited about the new WIP. I hope I’m able to do justice to my idea.

Finishing Fiery hasn’t reduced the number of my WIPs at all since I started a new one. So, still 44 remaining. I’m not sure I’ll be able to finish all these in this life time.

SPFBO starts next week, and I’m keeping my fingers crossed for Deathless Ones.

The lockdown is still continuing and my insomnia is worse than ever. I have to get up early tomorrow to get my second dose Covid vaccine too.

Why even life

Life, Lockdown, Random, Writing

More lockdowns and writings

The lockdown in our State is continuing, and we had triple lockdown in our district the last one week. The good part? Gave me time to write. I wrote 15k words in this one week, and I am rather proud of the effort.

Fiery Magic wasn’t moving forward, so I tried something new. I plotted. Yes. I did. I know. The world hasn’t ended. But it did rain heavily here for a few days. Anyway, it has helped. It is now moving forward, and I’m hopeful of finishing it by Monday at least.

I also started rewriting Soul of Magic. Yet to look at all the beta feedback to be honest, but I remember most of them saying this could be larger. Well, guess what? It is larger. Looks like my cute little novella is going to be a cute little novel.

I am also planning to take a second look at Colliding Forces. I hope that one doesn’t grow into a novel too. Or Bleeding Gold. Or WIzard’s Debt.

My sleep schedule has been thrown all out of whack during this lockdown even if I have work on some days. I have been getting up almost at afternoon, and unable to fall asleep in time during the night. Hopefully. I will be able to get things back to normal before the lockdown ends on the 30th.

In the meantime, there’s all the writing.

Child Loss, Depression, Life, Random

The travails of lockdowns

I know it is necessary here, with how the Covid cases rising everyday and deaths too, but I’d forgotten how inconvenient a full lockdown was. One good thing is banks don’t have to work every day. Three days a week with 50% staff and timings up to 2, so I had to go only one day this week with Work from Home the other two days.

Writing hasn’t been going well, largely due to the deaths happening in our organisation. Many people I know personally died, and I have so much fear for my friends and family.

SPFBO 7 opens today, and I’m submitting Deathless Ones and keeping all my fingers crossed. I haven’t got around to reading much after I finished the Grishaverse, but I might start something next week or so.

I had dreams about my son on most days, and most of the days I wake up wishing I hadn’t. Anti depressants can only do so much, and several nights I had lain awake wishing I were dead. Some days are harder than others and I know I just need to hang in there on those days, but it is so difficult.

I plan to get my writing back on track by this week. Keeping my fingers crossed.

Grishaverse, Nikolai, Random, Shadow and Bone

A new addiction

I started reading Shadow and Bone on 27th and finished the whole series with Rule of Wolves on 4th. My mind is still lost in the Grishaverse to the extent I am unable to do anything. I also bingewatched the show on 2nd, but frankly, nothing compares to the books.

Nikolai is my most favourite character in the entire series. It has been a long time since I fell this hard for a fictional character. I can’t wait to see him in the second season of the show, and if he isn’t going to be there, I’m not watching the show again.

Zoya and Genya are my favourites after that and then the entire Six of Crows crew. To be honest, I liked the Six of Crows duology the best of all. The character arcs as well as the plot was far more engrossing than Shadow and Bone and King of Scars.

I am also making plans for doing some interviews and stuff, and yes, get Out of the Blue and Magical Mayhem to betas.

Why can’t I sit and dream about Nikolai all day?

Help a friend, Life, Nanowrimo, Random, WIP, Writing

Another Friday and More Thoughts

I have been quite busy this month, and for once, it is not work. I have been helping out a couple of friends with editing, and having a lot of fun. One of them had had some quite exciting changes happen, but more on that later.

I also caught up to my camp nano goals, and keeping my fingers crossed to get Fiery Magic finished this month. The rewrite/edits of Memories also is almost at an end. That is a big relief.

Come what may, I am determined to finish applying the beta notes of Life Remains and Bleeding Gold this month as also to finish the first round of edits of Curse of Souls and Out of the Blue.

Braving the Storm is still nowhere, not because I have no ideas, but because I can see it going in too many directions, and I’m not sure which one to pursue. Joys of pantsing. I know how I want it to end, but I need Freya and Hallie to tell me where they are going next.

The Spell of Gods, on the other hand, is going along a way I hadn’t expected. I’m not sure what is going to happen to it at this point, but I’m down for the adventure.

Editing is such fun, but also draining? I have also been alpha reading a very fun Pride and Prejudice retelling with magic and dragons by a friend. P&P is not my most favourite of books, but I do love cute retellings with magic. I am just waiting for another friend to publish her retelling with angels and monster hunting.

Death of Summer is coming along nicely as is Before the End and that reminds me that I should have a blurb ready for Shades of Spring at some point and start looking for betas. Getting betas for a series is such a pain, but hopefully I can nab some?

Depression, Life, Nanowrimo, Random, WIP, Writing

Weekend Plans

I haven’t got a synopsis for RevPit yet, but there’s still time? I’ve got my submission document ready for now. I’m also behind in my camp nano goals, so plans for the weekend is to catch up and maybe build up a buffer.

Even though I’m behind on my goals, writing is still happening, and right now, that’s all I can ask for.

I’m also doing some editing for a friend, and hope she finds them useful.

I submitted my resignation at work. I’m planning to leave on July 31st. Many people including my mom is questioning my decision, but I have no doubts. There will be some financial insecurity and issues, but right now, I can’t deal with all the stress of this and everything else in my life. Something’s got to give and I’d rather not end up in the list of long line of bankers who have taken their lives due to stress of the job.

There are days when I feel like a complete failure, but hopefully such feelings will pass.

Right now, all I am thinking of is the weekend and all the writing I need to do.

Life, Nanowrimo, Random, WIP, Writing

April is Camp Nano

I did finish Wizard’s Debt in March. I have too many things to do in April, but I am hopeful that work being less stressful would help with that.

I also signed up for Camp nano. At this point, most of my nano projects are titled Miscellaneous. Which works since I never seem to be able to stick to one project.

The daily accountability of Camp helps a lot to keep me on track. I’m thinking I could continue to create projects in nano site and carry on with the process even when camp is over.

I am watching Hannibal. Binged most of the first season yesterday and I’m completely hooked. I ship Hannigram so much!!

Taking two days off work has helped me relax a lot. It is also helping me with writing. The writing targets don’t intimidate me as much as the editing and the applying beta notes and all that part.

Many people in my life, people I personally don’t even know, have supported my decision to quit the job to be a full time writer. For some reason, it has brought all my imposter syndrome to the fore. I feel like I need some external validation of my writing from people who have actually read my books.

Hopefully, this will pass in a few days.

Till then, I’ll just keep writing and even if it is trash, it is still my trash.

 

Life, Random, Writing

Some positives

I watched Zach Snyder’s Justice League today and I loved it. Mind you, I loved the 2017 movie, but even then I’d wanted the Snyder Cut and this one didn’t disappoint at all.

I also started watching Hannibal yesterday. Watched three episodes, and if not for watching JL, I would definitely have watched more of it.

Both were good distractions from the stress of work, and everything else. Also, it’s been a while since I was able to sit and watch something lasting more than an hour. Good sign, that.

Wizard’s Debt is slowly crawling along, but I’m hopeful of getting it finished soon. I finished the edits of both Banished Secret and Magical Mayhem, and now started on Curse of Souls.

I also joined a discord for covers, though I don’t know why since I am on a cover ban.

On the whole, in spite of all the depression, stress and feelings of worthlessness, there has been some good things this week.