Life, Lockdown, Random, Writing

More lockdowns and writings

The lockdown in our State is continuing, and we had triple lockdown in our district the last one week. The good part? Gave me time to write. I wrote 15k words in this one week, and I am rather proud of the effort.

Fiery Magic wasn’t moving forward, so I tried something new. I plotted. Yes. I did. I know. The world hasn’t ended. But it did rain heavily here for a few days. Anyway, it has helped. It is now moving forward, and I’m hopeful of finishing it by Monday at least.

I also started rewriting Soul of Magic. Yet to look at all the beta feedback to be honest, but I remember most of them saying this could be larger. Well, guess what? It is larger. Looks like my cute little novella is going to be a cute little novel.

I am also planning to take a second look at Colliding Forces. I hope that one doesn’t grow into a novel too. Or Bleeding Gold. Or WIzard’s Debt.

My sleep schedule has been thrown all out of whack during this lockdown even if I have work on some days. I have been getting up almost at afternoon, and unable to fall asleep in time during the night. Hopefully. I will be able to get things back to normal before the lockdown ends on the 30th.

In the meantime, there’s all the writing.

Life, Nanowrimo, Random, WIP, Writing

April is Camp Nano

I did finish Wizard’s Debt in March. I have too many things to do in April, but I am hopeful that work being less stressful would help with that.

I also signed up for Camp nano. At this point, most of my nano projects are titled Miscellaneous. Which works since I never seem to be able to stick to one project.

The daily accountability of Camp helps a lot to keep me on track. I’m thinking I could continue to create projects in nano site and carry on with the process even when camp is over.

I am watching Hannibal. Binged most of the first season yesterday and I’m completely hooked. I ship Hannigram so much!!

Taking two days off work has helped me relax a lot. It is also helping me with writing. The writing targets don’t intimidate me as much as the editing and the applying beta notes and all that part.

Many people in my life, people I personally don’t even know, have supported my decision to quit the job to be a full time writer. For some reason, it has brought all my imposter syndrome to the fore. I feel like I need some external validation of my writing from people who have actually read my books.

Hopefully, this will pass in a few days.

Till then, I’ll just keep writing and even if it is trash, it is still my trash.

 

Life, Random, Writing

Some positives

I watched Zach Snyder’s Justice League today and I loved it. Mind you, I loved the 2017 movie, but even then I’d wanted the Snyder Cut and this one didn’t disappoint at all.

I also started watching Hannibal yesterday. Watched three episodes, and if not for watching JL, I would definitely have watched more of it.

Both were good distractions from the stress of work, and everything else. Also, it’s been a while since I was able to sit and watch something lasting more than an hour. Good sign, that.

Wizard’s Debt is slowly crawling along, but I’m hopeful of getting it finished soon. I finished the edits of both Banished Secret and Magical Mayhem, and now started on Curse of Souls.

I also joined a discord for covers, though I don’t know why since I am on a cover ban.

On the whole, in spite of all the depression, stress and feelings of worthlessness, there has been some good things this week.

Life, Random, WIP, Writing

Random Thoughts

March is usually the busiest month in the year for banks in India, and to say work has been crazy would be an understatement.

I’m so exhausted after work, but watching Elementary during dinner is one of the highlights of my evening. I had forgotten just how much I loved this show and its characters.

My reading is more or less stalled, and so is my writing. I need a break before I can find joy in writing again, and without that joy, I’d rather not be writing at all.

I’m finding a lot of joy in editing my finished works, though. Banished Secret has been such a pleasant surprise. I always thought of it as mostly trash, but it has been proving me wrong. I’m rather proud of my own writing.

I took stock of all my books recently, and I have 17 published books. That itself is so surprising. That plus 28 finished works and another 45 WIPs puts me at 90 works in all. That actually awes me.

I’m pretty sure I can add one more to the list of finished books this month, but I can’t be certain the number of WIPs will diminish since I always seem to have new ideas.

Something to look forward to.

Child Loss, Depression, Life, WIP, Writing

March is here

March is here, and so is summer. I keep plugging away at words, hoping that I might actually get somewhere with all this. I haven’t finished Wizard’s Debt yet, but hopefully I’ll get to do it this month.

March 4th was my son’s birthday. He would have turned 18 if he had lived. It is a hard time for me, and I just want this week to be over. It has been interminably long.

Work is going okay, usual stresses and strains, nothing exceptional, but I find myself waiting for the other shoe to drop. This job is like being in an abusive relationship. Everything may look hunky dory right now, but you never know when the abuse is going to start back up; you only know that it will, sooner or later.

Writing is going at a snail’s pace, and even reading has slowed down a bit. This isn’t a week or a month that I want even to be alive. If only it were possible to die for a month, and spring back into life in April!

Some days, I have no hopes for the future, and I get through days by not thinking of it.

All the same, Wizard’s Debt is beginning to get interesting and Jeff has some interesting things in his past. Finishing this book is a future I can look forward to.

Life, Random, Writing

Some health scares and other things

The week started off with my gut trying to kill me. Spent a whole night, mostly puking mu guts out and unable to sleep. Had to take Monday off and couldn’t even enjoy the break, lol. Slept a bit during the day, though.

I did finish the first draft of the Curse of Souls as I had planned on Sunday before shit went down, so that’s something. Right now, Blue 2 is coming along nicely, and Wizard’s Debt is also looking good.

I have been reading a lot of gay romances, most of them short and enjoying myself thoroughly. I do have one beta read going on and I am enjoying that one immensely too.

I think I may need a developmental editor for Rage of Gods. It is such a mess. I hope once the first round of edits is done, it will at least be palatable to the developmental editor I hope to hire.

My gut still hasn’t returned to normal, and I feel nauseous very often. Hunger too has been remarkably absent, as has appetite. Hopefully, everything will get better in time.

 

Life, Random, WIP, Writing

Happy Holidays

Merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates it, and happy holidays to everyone who doesn’t. The pandemic has fucked up our whole year, but hopefully next year will be better. The vaccine is here and perhaps we will all be able to gain some semblance of normalcy in our lives.

My week has been work and meetings and most days when I reach home, I amĀ  a zombie with no energy or motivation to write or edit. I still managed words every day and I am so proud of myself.

I am still adding scenes to Soul of Magic. I do love the premise of the book and I want to do justice to it. Will and Duncan will never forgive me otherwise.

I spent the whole of yesterday evening translating songs in my playlist. I suppose that counts towards writing?

I started a new WIP today which yes. I am thinking of starting another, so I suppose my tendency to torture myself is reaching new levels.

On the plus side, I filed my income tax returns, so that’s something.

Once again I wish you happy holidays.

Cover competition, Covers, Life, Random, WIP, Writing

A Hectic Week

This week had been unlike any other. I had a breakdown at work yesterday and had to leave early. Mental health issues are no fun, and everything is making me more and more convinced that my decision to quit my job next year is the right one. Whether I will be able to generate enough income from my writing or editing is doubtful at the moment, but that is future me’s problem. Present me just wants to get through today.

Highlight of the week was definitely finishing nano with more than a 100k words written. When I started the month, I wasn’t even sure I’d get to that 50k. There was zero motivation to write and none of the projects were doing anything. Instead, I ended up finishing Bleeding Gold, started and finished Colliding Forces and Spell of Gods, started Magic and Mayhem and Memories of Forgotten Dreams, wrote a few Destiel Coda fics, and got Fiery Magic and Death of Summer to really interesting places. If Memories of Forgotten Waves wasn’t consuming me the way it is, I would have explored those further this month.

I got a cover for Bleeding Gold despite swearing up and down I am not going to buy any more covers till January. Everything was on sale and now I have pretty covers for Colliding forces, Spell of Gods, Journey of Ages and Bleeding Gold and one more cover for which I don’t yet have anything, lol.

Getting a cover for Bleeding Gold is making me rethink my publishing plans for next year. Should I just postpone Stolen from a Dream another year and publish Bleeding Gold next year so it will be all vampires next year? I never knew I was going to love writing vampires so much I would end up writing four vampire books. Vampires have never been my favourite thing to read. They still aren’t, but I so enjoy writing them.

Life Remains is still my favourite of all the vampire books I’ve written, though I have no idea why. I want to think it’s because Frederick turned out so different from how I thought he would turn out. I love how each of my vampires are so different and their stories pan out so differently too. Bleeding Gold ended up so fluffy and that was a surprise too. I honestly didn’t think Alvin was going to get a happy ending, though he did deserve one.

Memories of Forgotten Waves took a twist late last night, and now I’m pantsing like mad, trying to figure out where it is going. Despite my love of happy endings, and how I end my books on a positive note, even if there isn’t always an HEA, I really want to end one book with some heartbreak, just to prove to myself I can do it. Is Memories going to be the one? Not with how Aderin is behaving lately, that’s for sure. Ellwood turned out such a sweetie too. Sighs in writer. I love it when my characters turn out different from what I thought they were like, and how they change during the course of the story, but there are times when I wish they wouldn’t surprise me so much.

But that’s what makes this whole thing fun, and them so relatable and worth investing time on.

Deathless Ones made it to the Cover Competition on Allauthor.com. So, if you can all pop over here and vote for it, it’d mean a lot. It is a cover that makes me swoon every time I see it.

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Random Rants

I’ve been attempting to keep myself busy with writing mostly, but also been setting up books due to release in 2021 for pre-order.

Good news for those who loved The Elitist Supremacy. The second book of the series is due to come out in less than a year!!

If you love vampires, There’s Always a Morning is due to release in March 2021. I have two more vampire books I will be releasing next year, not to speak of one more fantasy novella.

Work has been really wearing me down, and I’m amazed at how insensitive people can be at times. Writing provides an escape, thankfully, and I don’t think I would have survived if not for that and the people who have stood by me, and refused to give up even when I was ready to.

Staying safe and busy for now.